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Monday, March 31, 2008 + morose + hang on folks, this is gonna get random im not one to get mood swings. i alternate between having introvert and extrovert tendencies. i can hole myself up in my room the whole day, then burst out at night in a fit of crazy public antics. im stressed out, juggling school work and hall stuff. I'm preparing for Command 2008. The final hall event where graduating seniors put up a good-bye show. the funny part is: im under no obligation to do anything other than the minimum... but i went ahead to sign up for 3 performances. heh. i just haaad to end things with a bang. at the same time im sad to leave. so many mixed feelings preparing for my departure. all the while... im pouring whatever remaining juice i have left into GEK2020: Intro to Film Art. I sooo want an "A" for this module. when actually i can S/U this module. well what did u expect? i wanna be a director! I got "A" for Intro to Theatre Studies... and that was while i was still under the stress of doing hall production! do i kill myself or what? right about now i'm not the easiest person to love, aren't i? God gave me this great dream of becoming a director or screen writer. i really appreciate it. it gives me something to focus my wild energies around. sometimes i wonder what took Him so long. i feel i've been wandering in circles for years. had it been a waste of time? im gg to graduate soon. with a degree in history. this is highly unorthodox. are there directors with degrees in history? i'm even considering another degree from Tisch now. my time in NUS has been great, but will it be enough to carry the dream? in my impatience i sometimes feel disappointed with God. but it becomes more apparent to that the process of preparing me was going to be painfully slow. i had to be heartbroken... to translate loss i had to take history... to witness the irrational things people do, even as nations i had to hear stories of pain... to understand drama doesn't happen to "other ppl" we don't see i had to learn acting "just for fun"... because if it weren't fun, i wldn't have done that much so am i ready for the media industry now? i sure hope so... only time will tell cheers? i need a re-fill gestures to empty glass ian wong beats around the bush@ 10:39 AM Comments: Post a Comment

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Monday, March 31, 2008

+ morose +

hang on folks, this is gonna get random

im not one to get mood swings. i alternate between having introvert and extrovert tendencies. i can hole myself up in my room the whole day, then burst out at night in a fit of crazy public antics.

im stressed out, juggling school work and hall stuff. I'm preparing for Command 2008. The final hall event where graduating seniors put up a good-bye show. the funny part is: im under no obligation to do anything other than the minimum... but i went ahead to sign up for 3 performances. heh. i just haaad to end things with a bang. at the same time im sad to leave. so many mixed feelings preparing for my departure. all the while... im pouring whatever remaining juice i have left into GEK2020: Intro to Film Art. I sooo want an "A" for this module. when actually i can S/U this module. well what did u expect? i wanna be a director! I got "A" for Intro to Theatre Studies... and that was while i was still under the stress of doing hall production!

do i kill myself or what?
right about now i'm not the easiest person to love, aren't i?

God gave me this great dream of becoming a director or screen writer. i really appreciate it. it gives me something to focus my wild energies around. sometimes i wonder what took Him so long. i feel i've been wandering in circles for years. had it been a waste of time? im gg to graduate soon. with a degree in history. this is highly unorthodox. are there directors with degrees in history? i'm even considering another degree from Tisch now. my time in NUS has been great, but will it be enough to carry the dream? in my impatience i sometimes feel disappointed with God. but it becomes more apparent to that the process of preparing me was going to be painfully slow.

i had to be heartbroken... to translate loss
i had to take history... to witness the irrational things people do, even as nations
i had to hear stories of pain... to understand drama doesn't happen to "other ppl" we don't see
i had to learn acting "just for fun"... because if it weren't fun, i wldn't have done that much

so am i ready for the media industry now? i sure hope so... only time will tell

cheers? i need a re-fill *gestures to empty glass*

ian wong beats around the bush@ 10:39 AM

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