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Friday, June 30, 2006
+ the voice of uncertainty +
Head: Dude, be serious, try that and you risk everything you've been working towards for the past few years. Heart: we can do it... it has to happen, why not soon? Head: If you won't listen to reason, we'll let gut be the tie breaker. Gut: No comment. Head: C'mon!! You always had a feeling when we get stuck like this! Hands: hey... we did the working, we deserve a say. Head: Fair enough. Hands: we say we forge a new beginning. Head: You mean.... oh shit... noooo.... Feet: Been there, done that. Head: NO WE HAVEN'T! It's different this time! Last time, 6 months went down the crapper, you really wanna put everything on the line this time? Feet: Ha! Last time you agreed! Head: Less was at stake last time! Hands: U think we can't do it. Head: The big difference seperating me and u dolts is the fact that I THINK! Everytime Heart fires u guys up to do somethin, u all think ur fucking invincible. Feet: From our records, we have seldom met an obstacle we couldn't beat. Head: Do u even remember the pain of defeat? Gut: Fate didn't side us the last time. U are too quick to relegate the last 6 months as waste. Eyes: WE saw no dividends... Heart: Just because u can't see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Eyes: Rhetoric serves little to light the path. We saw only your pain, and we remember. You hurt the most among us. Heart: i ached becos Head spent 3 months telling me to quit. Head: If i didn't, no one would. AND we'd still be wasting time chasing an impossible dream. Heart: Ian's dreams have changed since then. Hands: Remember the joy? when we weaved his new dreams into reality? Creating something from nothing... "Storm in a Fishbowl" the musical and so on... where were THOSE before we embarked upon their making? Head: Yes. I seek to protect those dreams. Don't u? Feet: To what end? another bygone tale to tell the grandchildren? Ian needs a new adventure, a new dream. Head: This new dream, it frightens me so... Balls: Just do it. Head, Heart, Gut, Feet: SHUT UP!!! Balls: Hey, just stating an opinion. No need to get anal. Feet: Listening to YOU has caused nothing but trouble. Hands: Destroying the results of Ian's dream would be a massive feat. Cos God was involved its making. Head: if any hand shalt come against the results of Ian's dreams, i cannot allow it to be his own. Hands: WE'D NEVER! Head: Unwittingly maybe. Heart: If we don't do it, Ian risks regretting it for the rest of his life. Head: ... Gut: Ian deserves only the best. Head: Is this best? Heart: Perhaps. The risk is great, but the dream... such a beautiful dream... Hands: yes...... we've already started work on it... Head: Without telling me? Mouth: Call it a Freudian Slip. Head: Bah... if we don't try, we'll never know. I wish God would offer an opinion. Right Hand *raises wine glass* Switchfoot - "Learing to Breathe" Hello, good morning, how ya do? What makes your rising sun so new? I could use a fresh beginning too All of my regrets are nothing new So this is the way that I say that I need You This is the way This is the way That I'm learning to breathe I'm learning to crawl I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall I'm living again, awake and alive I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies Hello, good morning, how ya been? Yesterday left my head kicked in I never thought I could fall like that Never knew that I could hurt this bad I'm learning to breathe I'm learning to crawl I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall I'm living again, awake and alive I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies So this is the way that I say that I need You This is the way That I say I love You This is the way That I say I'm Yours This is the way This is the way
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
+ wake me up +
When I was younger, a teacher in St Patrick's taught me an important life lesson. Of all people, it was a math teacher. He told us life is governed by an all encompassing law of progression. And it could be summed up into 3 simple words. Choices --> Decisions --> Consequences Made perfect sense to my rational mind. People have choices, they make decisions and live with the consequences. One thing has to result from another. Idiots make shitty decisions and have to live with shitty consequences. As I grew up, I also learnt to expect a certain X-factor which fits anywhere in the equation of life. Shit Happens. It just happens. It can happen anytime and doesn't have to originate with anything you ever did. Sometimes no one can be blamed, live with it. Everyone does. But recently God taught me something new. All my lessons in life had been correct, but incomplete. And as with always, trying to teach a stubborn dude, you let him learn the hard way. I was faced with a myriad of choices. Entering university meant I could change my life, mould it as I so pleased. And admittedly, sometimes I feel I made decisions I deeply regretted. I was many a time arrogant, self-centred, over-cautious or gung-ho, maybe foolish even. I even challenged God to teach me something new, haha, strangely, THAT I don't regret, because He answered my prayer, and I lived to tell of it. Oh well, back to the story... I was suddenly faced with the consequences of my actions months later, and it scared me shitless. SHITLESS. I SHIT U NOT. I stared into the face of an unconquerable doom. A doom I had created. And I hated myself for it. I previously did not give hope much credit. Cos u can't eat hope. Hope gives no results. But at that moment when all hope is gone, I begged for it to return. And God returned hope to me. I believe that all things fit together perfectly in the big picture, previously I believed I'll only see the big picture once I'm dead. Till I saw this verse: I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living. - Psalms 27:13 It fit my sentiments exactly. There was hope yet! I'd get to see a glimpse of the big picture, and get to tell of it. My glimpse for today was how my life had changed, how I've progressed, since the day I made that prayer full of pride. Ask Melvin, he was there, and yeah he was shocked when I made it. Haha... I wonder if he remembers. Indeed, this lesson in life was God's handiwork over many months. Choices --> Decisions --> Consequences --> Redemption When I kept silent, my bones grew old through my groaning all the day long. God answers: Cheers! Persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed! *raises wine glass* I am driving up 85 John Mayer - "Why Georgia", studio ver.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
+ The Powers that Be in English soccer have long feared this day +
Latest NewsShevchenko transfer completed Wednesday, May 31, 2006 (UK time)  Chelsea Football Club can confirm that Andriy Shevchenko has signed from AC Milan for a club record fee. Shevchenko completed a medical and agreed personal terms at The former European Footballer of the Year said: “I am here for the challenge and the excitement of playing in the Premier League. I am going from one big club to another and joining a team of champions. “There is a right moment to join a football club and I think I have arrived here at the perfect time. The Champions League has to be a realistic target for next season but it is not just about the Champions League. “I have followed Mr. Mourinho's career carefully for the last few years and have been hugely impressed with the way he manages. He puts team ethic before individual expression which is the way I believe great teams are created. Had money been my motivation for coming, I would probably have stayed in Name: Andriy Mykolayovych Shevchenko Born: September 29, 1976, Dvirkivschyna, near Height: 1.83 m (6ft) Weight: 72kg (11.3st) Career History Chelsea Football Club 2006 - Sets AC Milan 1999 - 2006 Second highest scorer in Milan's history with 173 goals in 296 games Dynamo Made professional debut in 1994 and netted 94 goals in 166 games for Dynamo Ukrainian Championship: 1999, 1998, 1997, 1996, 1995 Ukrainian Cup: 1998, 1996 International Captain of the Ukrainian national team and has scored 28 goals in 63 internationals European Record Set the competition record with 52 Champions League goals in 90 games
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