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Thursday, June 26, 2008 + Here and back again + random spoutings alert. its late and im pissed and in no mood to sound coherent. im suddenly a strong advocate of the phrase: work brings freedom. work makes u feel useful and a contributing member of society. work distracts u from bad memories. work keeps the body and mind from atrophy. i wish i had a stable job. God, teach me to be patient for i am on the verge of... ok fine, i don't know what im on the verge of doing... and that just makes me feel worse God, help me separate the shit which i should and should not take responsibility for. I don't habitually throw up my hands and say "it was fate/destiny", or "not my fault". I scheme and I scheme and I plan and i strategize and i adapt and i anticipate. When things screw up, maybe i should just learn to blame things/people other than myself. tryin to see shitty memories in the right perspective reduces the shitty-ness level, but it still doesn't turn shit into gold. So im back in East Coast, and its great that i have frens here, really appreciate them. I need help re-adjusting to this life. Damn, i miss hall life. recent Marche with the hall peeps was a blast. Suppers with the East Side peeps are killer fun too. But yeah, im still re-adjusting. Its not as if im surrounded above and below anymore. Its so damn quiet here. God, pride is the biggest enemy of prayer. I should know, I have too much of it. Fuck, my Commencement in on July 10. so what commences? God, are u reading this? by the way, i also hate to let down my friends. i fucked up. i gave my word without confirming i could keep it. Stupidstupidstupid ian wong beats around the bush@ 1:01 AM Comments: Post a Comment

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Thursday, June 26, 2008

+ Here and back again +

random spoutings alert.

its late and im pissed and in no mood to sound coherent.

im suddenly a strong advocate of the phrase: work brings freedom.
work makes u feel useful and a contributing member of society.
work distracts u from bad memories.
work keeps the body and mind from atrophy.
i wish i had a stable job.
God, teach me to be patient for i am on the verge of... ok fine, i don't know what im on the verge of doing... and that just makes me feel worse

God, help me separate the shit which i should and should not take responsibility for. I don't habitually throw up my hands and say "it was fate/destiny", or "not my fault". I scheme and I scheme and I plan and i strategize and i adapt and i anticipate. When things screw up, maybe i should just learn to blame things/people other than myself. tryin to see shitty memories in the right perspective reduces the shitty-ness level, but it still doesn't turn shit into gold.

So im back in East Coast, and its great that i have frens here, really appreciate them. I need help re-adjusting to this life. Damn, i miss hall life. recent Marche with the hall peeps was a blast. Suppers with the East Side peeps are killer fun too. But yeah, im still re-adjusting. Its not as if im surrounded above and below anymore. Its so damn quiet here.

God, pride is the biggest enemy of prayer. I should know, I have too much of it.

Fuck, my Commencement in on July 10. so what commences?

God, are u reading this? by the way, i also hate to let down my friends. i fucked up. i gave my word without confirming i could keep it. Stupidstupidstupid

ian wong beats around the bush@ 1:01 AM

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